her life in a nutshell

neil

i am sorry i bashed you and your girlfriend. 

i was in a bitter state.

i was angry, jealous and hurt. although NOW i know having those feelings are not a good reason to say those things - but during that time i thought it was an OK thing to do. 

i got hurt with ur replies, and yes it was provoked, i am so sorry for provoking you. i don’t need/expect for us to be friends. i just hope that one day - you would forgive me for what i said. 

sometimes things just make you want to SCREAM. no doubt about it. i cannot control what people do, nor can i control the environment. BUT i can control what i will say, how i will react, how i will do things. 

SO THE BEST THING TO DO IS - SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SLEEP.

even if INSIDE - i AM GODDAMM SCREAMING.

and there’s just this feeling u get when u meet someone. someone nice.

But what’s needier than turning your life into one endless Sally Jesse Raphael makeover episode? What’s more helpless than carving yourself out of some dude’s janky old rib? That is the opposite of finding an actual person who might actually love you. So stop it. You are not “too” anything for anyone. Be a person. Hang out with people. Do what you want and you’ll get what you want. Giving up on other people’s expectations isn’t settling—it’s demanding what you fucking deserve.

don't u see baby

“Everyone has the right to make his own decisions, but none has the right to force his decision on others.” 

love is exception-making. If you were in love you’d want to be broken, trampled, ordered, dominated, because that’s the impossible, in the inconceivable for you in your relations with people. That would be the one gift, the great exception you’d want to offer the man you loved. But it wouldn’t be easy for you.

“Compromise now, because you’ll have to later, anyway, only then you’ll have gone through things you’ll wish you hadn’t.” 

- Ayn Rand “The Fountainhead”